Monday, January 18

Brokenness


As humans we have a tendency to want to fix things when they are broken. I am a fixer by nature. I have been learning, however, on my journey as a Christian, that sometimes it is okay to be broken.

Contrary to popular belief, my life is not perfect. I am not perfect... I am far from perfect.

I am constantly walking through this journey that we call life, learning lessons and growing closer to Christ. Recently I have found myself in a bit of a valley - stuck at the bottom, hurt and broken- sulking in my pain and relentlessly trying to mend something that has been broken. Try as I may, at the end of the day I was still sitting in the bottom of this valley... alone.

I have been learning, however, that in my brokenness - in my suffering, I can draw closer to Christ. I can run to Him and He becomes my perfect source of strength. The situation may not be mended, the wounds may heal over time-- and inevitably there will be a scar left behind, but through my suffering I find grace - Christ gives us endless, perfect and wonderful grace. I am deeply humbled by the love that continues to pour from Him and I find deep comfort in clinging to Him - He is my light, my truth and day by day He is pulling me out of the valley.

So here I am, broken. My hands are open, I have learned to let go. I have stopped trying to mend, stopped trying to fix. And through my brokenness I have found peace. I ran like an uninhibited 6 year old- barefoot, hair blowing in the breeze- through a field into my Savior's open arms. He is my strength. He is perfect. His grace is enough for me. I am a work in progress- God is not finished with me yet.

Hungry I run to you for I know you satisfy.
I am empty but I know your love does not run dry.
So I wait for you.
So I wait for you.

I'm falling on my knees!
Offering all of me.
Jesus you're all this heart is living for.

Broken I come to you for your arms are open wide.
I am weary but I know your love restores my life.
So I wait for you.
So I wait for you.

I'm falling on my knees!
Offering all of me.
Jesus you're all this heart is living for.

- Hungry, Kathryn Scott

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